Monday, September 19, 2011

Welcome back...

... she said to herself when after a two-month (and a little bit) break she finally logged into Blogger. Ouch!



Yes, I'm lazy. Yes, I'm THAT lazy...



It was great to take a break, and it feels awkward to be back. But I'm sure I'll get back into the swing of things in no time.

My summer was uneventful. Boring even. Odd to say that, because in reality, I was crazy busy. Doing stuff I didn't want to be doing, hence the "boring" description.

I don't know why I felt (and still feel) so depressed. I have a good job with a decent salary, I have a great husband (who should be nominated for sainthood for putting up with me), I have lovely friends, a big house (yes, we've finally moved in), two of the sweetest cats the world has known... So why am I feeling like such a failure?


Warning!!! Warning!!! - a bunch of really pitiful and intensely personal "oh, please feel sorry for me" shit is coming up. If you don't want to read it, just scroll down to the end of the post to look at the photo of a girl waving a big sword. Thank you!




The fact that earlier this year I was diagnosed with premature ovarian failure (yes, that's early menopause in normal people speak, but "premature ovarian failure" sounds oh-so-much fancier, doesn't it?) certainly had something to do with it. But that I'm bothered by it is also rather odd, because it's not like we were planning to produce a litter of haafus, or anything. Quite the opposite, in fact. I never wanted to be a mother.

However, turning forty (yep, it did happen - this past July) and suddenly finding out I'm officially an old lady, in more ways than one, was hard. Then came the hormones - patches and tablets, and the mood swings. I've always been a total bitch on the best of days, so it's easy to imagine what my hormone-induced worst days look like. My poor, poor husband...

And speaking of, I've been wondering how Mister Trouble even manages to live with me lately. Yesterday we had an interesting dinner table (yes, we have a dinner table now, well, sort of, more like a counter, really) conversation. He said I'm terrible at housework (true, I despise it) and that I'm a "good cook in my own way" (translation - "I'm just saying that not to hurt your feelings, because if I tell you the truth, you'd go ballistic again and I'd like to have one day of peace this week and not deal with your bullshit"), and that generally, the only thing I'm good at is loading up the washing machine and adding soap and softener. Geez... and that's coming from my loving husband...

Now, to all that I can add a total failure, not only as a housewife, but also in general, as a woman. It's scary what the inability to bleed every month can do to a woman's ego. Ouch again...


Oh, and before I forget... Some of my coworkers and my students' parents (hi guys!!!) also found this blog. It's not like I was hiding it, quite the opposite actually, but somehow I didn't expect certain folks to read it with the help of Google Translate. So yes, I need to be really careful what and how I say on here from now on. LOL! Yeah, like that's gonna happen...

But on a more serious note, apart from all the usual Japan-themed bits and diddles, which of course, will remain, as always, you can expect this blog to be a lot more personal in the future... And if you don't like it, well, that's too bad...




And now, for the usual Japan-themed bits and diddles...

 We nicknamed her "Azumi" (yeah, not very original, I know, but that was the first thing that came to our minds); her real last name is Ms. Nozaki. This was the third year we watched her in Moka and she's gotten so much better since the first time we saw her! I'm very impressed!


Yesterday we went to one of our favoritest (yes, I know it's not a real word and I won't be teaching it to your children, don't worry) festivals - Rei Taisai at Nakamura Hachimangu in Moka.

I think last year we gave you a blow-by-blow description of the place and the event, so all I'm going to say is that this year it was pretty much the same.

There was yabusame (traditional horseback archery), daidai kagura (ritual shinto dancing), batto embu taikai (lots of sword waving) and a mikoshi procession (a portable shrine carried by a bunch of guys, some in fundoshi, but most in shorts or tights).

And, of course, I have most of the event on video (except for the mikoshi procession, because it was last and it was hot and I wasn't feeling well so I went to sit in the car with the AC on full blast). But when you will see this video is anybody's guess... As I still haven't gotten around to editing the footage from my trip to Ishinomaki this summer. Yikes!


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